disaster

Things getting out of hand now....maybe disasters coming my way and all i could do now is sit and wait for the attack. I cant do anything anymore...i feel like even God has abandoned me, of cos He will never.
I am so lost now. If things going to end, this would be biggest crisis ever happened in my entire life.
When I agreed to enter my life with him, I promised that this ugly thing will never happened. I will not allowed anything to happen & I will be the faithful one. Then things turn around....then its getting worse and worst and I totally dont know how to handle it at all. I m letting others to manipulate me and I alwys sit there and feeling hopeless and let things handle by itself. & of cos things will never get better if I kept avoiding it and that's why today I m here preparing to accept the breaking point of my life and to mourn over my loses!!!!

Lesson from this, never take it lightly when come to serious matter. Its too late for me and I going to enter 'hell' soon..... sob sob sob