~:: MeRRy cHriStMas mY dEAr ::~

mErry Xmas all of you~!!!

Yeah..Everyone knows Christmas is falled on 25th December every year, and it is very clear that today is only 27th October, why am I here wishing you Merry Christmas???

Oh well......actually nothing. I am just afraid that I'll not be able to be with my dear friends and family members during this Holy Day as I will have to WORK on that day! Yup..working..I will need to work when I go over that place!!!! sigh....
No matter how, I wish I will be able to attend mid night Christmas Eve Mass and I'm hoping I won't be working that evening ~ particulary mid night too! *Pray for me....
Christmas, it brings sweet memories to me especially attending mid night mass with friends and loved ones. I wonder if I will have the chance to do so anymore?? Kinda sad right?

** I don't wanna cry, I don't wanna cry ~~ I can take it and this is my choice.. I can do it, I can do it~! **

MERRY CHRISTMAS ONCE AGAIN!! MAY GOD BRINGS US JOYS & HAPPINESS!! Most important, PEACE in Life~~!!

~:: ChaNges in LiFe ::~

Last few days was holiday here in Msia. I was just stay at home most of the time except Tuesday (24/10) went to Raya visiting with BaoBao :*. Really love those Malay masakan [foods] and their delicious cakes. Malays are famous with their cakes as they are good in making cakes. Most of my friends were eyeing on CAKES only & someone even asked me today if I still have Muslim friends - Malay generally, that I have yet to visit. She wanna follow me for visiting and taste their cakes. The one we like the most is "Prune Cake"~ this cake don't really look nice from appearance but it tastes excellent!!! yummy yummy~~~

I am very happy this year because I've got this opportunity to visit our Malay friends. They were very friendly and hospitality. Sad thing is, this perhaps is my last chance to have this kind of Raya visiting because I might have to leave this country soon. :(



Sad right? Well, perhaps you are not, but I feel sad lor. Even though I am desperately wanted to leave this place [because of some sensitive issues] but deep down, I actually feel hesitate to leave. I once asked papa would he let me go? Know what he said? He answered, if you really want to go, what can I do? Wawawawah **sob**.. I know he is sad too...but I've got no choice. I need to leave here to start my life "all over again" & am aiming for a more prosperous life.

Yesterday morning I received a call from the HR personnel over the place I wanna go. She were asking me to go there for the medical check up. She also told me I would have to make 2 trips in order to complete the whole process of check up. 1st is for check-up, 2nd is for collecting my result & submission of necessary documents to the Ministry of Men Power. Oh well..2 trips??? Just for a check-up? I will need to fly there twice and it will probably spend me 450 per pax.. & of cos I wont be going alone...hehehehe...BaoBao surely have to accompany me cos I'm so scared of stranger.. :p so that means 900 for the check-up+report?! hmm...... And please bear in mind that 900 is excluding of accommodation and transportation, not to mention food and misc... **faint**

To be frank, many were asking me if I would go for the medical check-up, it means I've decided to go there for good instead of another place whereby BaoBao have also got an offer there? And my answer is: Im not sure wor!! SEE!! This is a tough decision man... I really don't know whether we have made the right decision or just a harsh one. I've been struggling and been miserable for the pass one and half month just because of this stupid "where to go?" issue, and it is still not settled yet!! Somebody please tell me what should I do? Although you may see I've already pushing myself to the place I wanna be but in the other hand, I feel damn sorry because BaoBao never like that place. He prefers the other place actually. Oh God, can You please help me, help me, help me, please???

Ok..back to my medical check-up issue then. At the end, BaoBao suggested to go with me next week for the check-up then back here 3 days later. ( Know what? Me actually not be able to sleep well last night especially after received the call from HR. I will never believe I am going tol enter there again and perhaps will be there for good!! Well, I know it is still too early to tell whethere I can cope with it or not but I'm feeling upside down now :: excited but anxious) Result will only be collected 2 weeks later when both of us are under unemployed status..!! (well, actually it makes no different.. I mean we still need to spend 1,800 for this 2 trips but at least don't have to rush back to collect it in another 1 week times) And I think that's the only way since we are both feeling sooooo LOST and not be able to make a better decision in this situation. Well, I guess outsider may not understand why is it so difficult to decide where to go but for us, it is. :(

aLL tHe best to us then~!

~+~ What does tomorrow hold? ~+~

you may feel as though the future you long for is still beyound your reach.

there is more you have to do before it arrives - and some days it seems so far away.

but the future doesn't magically appear out of the air. whether or not you realize it, right now you are creating the future. the way you live your life today...and tomorrow...will influence the shape of your life for years to come.

so, build strong now, for the future.

I am about to do a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? ISAIAH 43:19 NRSV

:+: Let's Think About Our God :+:

Let's think about our God

Our Savior and our King

The One who gave it all
He gave up everything

Let's think about the Man

Who shed His precious blood

So we could be His friends

His friends until the end

And give our love and praise to Him

He is our Savior and our friend

Let's give our love and praise to Him

He is our Savior and our friend

Let's think about our Father's heart

So right and true

He's never given up

Given up on me or you

Let's think about our God

Of love and mercy free

He's washed us white as snow

For all eternity

We love You Lord

We love You Lord

Just one thought of You

And all we can say is

Let's think about our God

The high and lofty One

Who says He's never far

From the brokenhearted ones

Let's think about our Lord

Who formed the stars above

So we could have a glimpse

Of His glory up above

~:: Casual Wear ::~

Am so damn bored in the office today. Boss went outstation & I really don't have much thing to do except browsing through the net. So that's how i've got the chance to scan this picture from a fashion magazine. Since don't know what to write, might as well post it here. ^.^

Love the design of these clothes.. including the colours, light & soft..my favourites. ;p

~:: iN fAsHioN ::~

Cute and funky cosmetic collections... isn't that they are so adorable? :)