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If i were giving a chance to turn back time..I will surely turn to the time before we met...& i will try my best to avoid whatever possibility to have met up with u. because if we had not met, all these shitty things today wont be happening..and i would have at least live peacefully....
In fact I also hv thot of, if i didnt meet up with u, might be I hv oso met up with othrs then...who knows? I alwys make life difficult because I m a indecisive person.....i don knw hw to fight for my rights and i alwys like the things people don seem to be able to accept. i alwys seek love/feeling first before my mind be able to tell me if that's right or wrong...therefore in many cases, i only following my feelings instead of reality.......


but with my age increasing n approaching, i can no longer do that....today i hv fought for the love of my life n i knw vy well it is wrong...but i just cant resist to falling in love with him bcos he is just so right for me............then suddenly reality come hits me n i hv to make a choice....n i totally no idea how to choose.......it is TOUGH!!!!!


i so tired now............i was told to prove my sincerity by action tonight but my heart is attached with anthr pax......n i knw it is completely wrong....


one side is responsibility
one side is wrong love


HOW? an zua zou?!