today ~~

a bit tired n sleepy n miserable n fed up today...

cant concentrate and didnt finish my work at all =="

too much worries too many things to think about always get anxious and paranoid ...

hAiz...... still cannot figure out what exactly i want. what should I do with my life?

Head & heart are not coordinating well.... both having different thoughts!!

things I must do...

I must...

Cut back on debts & raise cash levels by ...

taking less taxis (means have to wake up early and planned everything ahead)

eating out less (cook at home?! hmm...)

shopping at discount stores ( I think i shouldn't go shopping at all cos i such a shopaholic...)!!!

pay monthly credit cards in full (haiz...still a long way to go....trying hard to clear debts..cry!!)

Fears & Doubts

I hv been living in fears and doubt and misery for...like for the past 18months. Certainly I dunno where myself heading to & I cant see myself in future not to say tomorrow... All I can remember is... I have no peace in my heart... I am very lost and I not sure what should I do and wat decision should I make so that I wont make stupid mistake again. I dunno is it worthwhile to sacrifice what Im holding on now... I dunno how to learn to let go and let God. I have to admit i had very bad temper hot temper always getting agitated recently.... Nothing seems to cool me down & even if it does, it wont last long. Ppl who loved me get suffered and have to tolerate a lot. I actually feel very bad deep down but I just dunno what to do at all. cry..

Today i read this 'daily devotion' thing from my beloved Pastor Kong. At least it calms me down a bit & i think at this point of time, i reli cannot do anything anymore except to follow what the article says........ & i indeed feel very blessed that this topic appeared on the time I needed it the most. Thanks God!! I love YOU!!

Ok...here you go...enjoy reading.........



Delivered From Fear


Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You. In God (I will praise His word), in God I have put my trust; I will not fear. What can flesh do to me? Psalm 56:3-4

Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You. In God (I will praise His word), in God I have put my trust; I will not fear. What can flesh do to me? Psalm 56:3-4When King David was going through the toughest period of his life, he made a decision to put his trust in God. He made a decision to praise His Word. Are you able to be like David and honestly say you will praise the Lord, especially when you are fearful and going through the toughest time of your life?

Why is King David able to say that with such confidence and boldness? It was because of His relationship with God. He had experienced and encountered God for himself. He knew beyond the shadow of a doubt that God would deliver him from every fearful situation. Do you struggle with fear in your life that takes away your peace? How can you be delivered from fear? Do what David did: Seek the Lord, pray to Him and ask Him to deliver you from all your fears (Ps. 34:4)! The best thing to do when you do not know what else to do is to pray. Jesus gave us a great promise that if we ask the Father in His name, He will answer our prayers (John 16:23-24)!

Sometimes God allows us to go through a very difficult period in our life to let us know that He is our Provider, our Deliverer, our very present help in times of need. Jesus is known as the Prince of Peace (Is. 9:6). That means He is the Captain, the Chief, the Ruler, the Master and the Lord of peace. “Peace” in Hebrew is shalom. It means safety, well-being, welfare, health and prosperity. Therefore, Jesus is the Lord of our safety, well-being, welfare, health and prosperity!

We often look at peace to mean an absence of conflict or war. No! Biblical peace involves our entire well-being as a person! Biblical peace is not passive, it is active and it can be imparted to us! Jesus says, “Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid” (John 14:27). As the people of God, we can enjoy peace from God that the world cannot give! When we go through difficulties, trials and pressure in life, we are better off than the people in the world because we have peace, prosperity and blessing from God!

Jesus wants us to know Him as our personal Prince of Peace. But that can only come by a revelation through relationship! When you know God and have a walk with Him like David had, you will be confident and bold that the Prince of Peace is watching over you. Then, you will be able to praise Him at all times. Your mouth will not speak words of fear, doubt or unbelief, but will only be fi lled with the praises of God.

~**Little Eva**~

Little Eva...this is way back to CNY 2009..as u can see I hv disappeared for so long..so dats y only now i hv the time to post the photo up...keke..

Pray for your Job

Today i gonna post abt 'The Power of a Praying for Work'.

As this is my first time trying to post something so 'sacred'..im actually a bit worried that i am not be able to really pass the message over...

Anyway, lets start the Day 1 prayer ;;;

So brothers, since God has shown us great mercy, I beg you to offer your lives as a living sacrifice to him. Your offering must be only for God and pleasing to Him. this is the spiritual way for you to worship. (Romans 12:1)

Heavenly Father, Thank you so much for loving me, thank you for sacrificing your life for me. Because of your unselfish love, I would also want to offer myself to you. I wan to live according to your will, pls make use of my life O Lord, so that I would also bring your glory to the world. O Lord I want to offer You my wisdom, my talent, my dreams, my future, the sovereign rights for choosing a job...all this I offer them in your hand, O God, so that I can live in your glory. Please keep changing my thoughts and judgements so that I will be able to lead a Christlike livelihood and by the power of the Holy Spirit, I can perform miracles in my works. I believe when I pray according to Your Power & Glory, all wills will be done. In Jesus' precious name I pray. Amen.